My body is in a state of exhaustion. There are tremors in my fingers that weren't once there. Its becoming harder to breathe. The lack of sleep has made my eyes heavy set and become harder to walk.
A bright future must be pursued, I'm ignoring my body's stressors for something higher in purpose. I'm chasing success, money, and power.
Being in charge of 1,000 hungry mouths within a 4 hour shift for three shifts a week is entirely maddening. Couple that with some incompetent workers, highly specialized diets, uncontrollable union workers and we have ourselves unimaginable stress.
This springs forth as well with the incredibly demanding curriculum within UCI's nursing program that every free hour of every day there's something to do. I feel engulfed in a race to just keep afloat with the amount of school and work. There's a midterm every week starting 4th week.
I don't have any time to myself. I need time to unwind and relax. I want time to date. I want someone who can help me through this. I've relied on myself for 21 years. Myself can't take it any longer.
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